When I'm in a crowd
Or on an island by myself
Silent or too loud
Wishing I was somewhere else
And I can't believe
You hit me fast and hard
When you turn to me and say
Never change the way you are
Trying to catch your eye
Things will never look the same
Now I can't deny
You're the moth and I'm the flame
There I go again
I should walk before I run
How can I explain
I can't stop what you've begun
I'm falling through the door
Flying 'cross the floor
When you look at me suddenly it's clear
You're burning up my dreams
Crazy as it seems
I don't wanna be anywhere but here
Anywhere but here
What goes on inside
Is a mystery no doubt
A roller coaster ride
I may never work it out
Here's the brand new me
Skates around and floats on air
I'm a sight to see
Rainbow colors in my hair
You have set me free
The one who gets me there
Here is the place where
My head is spinning
Time is beginning
To race away
You come to throw me
Knock me off my feet
You give me wings to fly
The world goes crashing by again
- Hilary Duff (Anywhere But Here)
Zack stared out his apartment window. He couldn't stop thinking about Max. He loved her so much. He just wanted to hold her in his arms and make her feel safe, wanted to kiss her soft lips, he just wanted to be with her. Though a part of him knew it would never happen. He figured, at least for now, he could deal with just being in her life, somehow, even if it was just as her big brother.
Max was at Jam Pony, she should have been working but she wasn't. Instead she was just sitting on the couch in front of the TV, not even paying attention to the television but just thinking.
Original Cindy walked over. She could tell something was up with Max but couldn't tell what. But she was determined to find out. Cindy sat down next to Max, "What going on with you? You've been acting strange all week." she asked.
Max looked up and sighed, "I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't stop thinking about him and it's driving me crazy."
"Who Logan?" Cindy asked.
"No, it's not Logan. That's what's weird. It's Zack. I can't stop thinking about Zack. God what's wrong with me?" Max replied burying her face in her hands.
Cindy knew exactly what was going on with Max now. She didn't understand why she didn't see it sooner. "Max you got it bad." Cindy stated.
"Huh?" Max asked looking up at her in confusion.
"You're in love with Zack. You're crazy in love with Zack." Original Cindy replied.
"No! No! I'm not in love with Zack. No way." Max protested. She paused for a moment. "Oh my god, I'm in love with Zack." She finally realized. "Okay, what do I do now?" Max asked. She normally didn't act like this but things were different with Zack, now that she thought about it things had always been different with him even when they were kids back at Manticore.
"Well Max you gotta tell him how you feel?" Cindy answered.
"I can't do that. I mean what if he doesn't feel the same way. I don't wanna scare him off." Max said.
A small smile spread across Cindy's face. "Trust me Max, he loves you too. Anyone with eyes can see that." Cindy said reassuringly.
Max thought for a moment then replied, "Well ok. I'll go after work."
"So you going to Crash tonight?" Cindy asked sort of changing the subject.
"Well I planned on it. Why?" Max asked.
Cindy smiled mischievously. "Well if you do make it, you gotta tell me what happens." Cindy said.
Max didn't understand why Cindy had such an interest in her love life but agreed anyway.
After work Max went to Zack's apartment. She wasn't even sure if he was even still in Seattle but knocked on the door away.
Zack looked through the peep hole and saw Max standing on the other side of the door. Shit, Max. God I can't do this right now. Zack thought to himself but opened the door anyway. "Max..." Zack said.
"Yeah I know I'm not supposed to be here but there's something I just had to tell you." Max said cutting Zack off.
"You okay? Is everything okay?" Zack asked concerned.
"Yeah. Everything's fine but you should probably sit down." Max replied.
"Uh ok." Zack said sitting down on the couch.
Max took a deep breath. "Ok this isn't gonna be easy so I'm just gonna say it. Zack I'm in love you." Max confessed.
Zack had waited so long to hear those words. He wanted so badly to tell her that he felt the same but for some reason he just couldn't get the words to come out.
A few minutes later Max looked up at him with sad eyes. "I'll just go now." She said, stood up and walked towards the door.
Zack couldn't just let her leave thinking he didn't love her cause he did, god did he. He had to do something. So he stood up and gently grabbed her arm. "Max wait." he said. Max turned around with a slightly happier look in her eyes. Zack leaned down and gently kissed her lips. "I love you too." He whispered.
Max smiled, Cindy had been right, he did love her. "Ok so what do we do now?" Max asked but before Zack could answer her pager went off. She checked it and it was Logan. "It's Logan. I probably better go see what he wants. He been on an Eyes Only kick lately." Max said. "But I promise to come over tomorrow and we can figure things out." Max added. Zack walked her to the door and kissed her once more before she left.
"So what d'ya got?" Max asked.
"Well, I found out Sam Jones is smuggling something out of the country but I'm not sure what." Logan replied.
"So you want me to find out what it is?" Max asked.
"Yeah if you would." Logan replied.
"Yeah but do you mind if I do it tomorrow? I kinda promised Original Cindy I'd hang with her tonight. I haven't exactly spent that much time with her lately." Max asked.
"Alright." Logan said. He would have rather she do it tonight but he knew she'd do what she wanted anyway.
Max through her arms around Logan giving him a big hug not even realizing what it meant to him. "Thanks." Max said happily.
Max walked into Crash and scanned the room for her friends. She spotted Cindy sitting at one of the tables and walked over and plopped herself down in the chair.
Original Cindy turned and looked at Max. "Ok so what happened?" Cindy asked.
"Gee, you don't waste any time do you?" Max asked with a smile.
"Nope so spill." Cindy replied.
"Okay, okay. So, I went to Zack's apartment. He opened the door and I told him I had something to tell him. Of course he thought something was wrong but I reassured him that everything was okay. Then we sat down on his couch and I just told him how I felt." Max explained.
"Ok so what did he say?" Cindy asked.
"Nothing actually. So, anyway I was gonna leave and that’s when it happened." Max continued.
"What? What happened?" Cindy interrupted.
"He kissed me." Max smiled. "Then he said he loved me too." Max added.
"Awww." Cindy said smiling.
"But then Logan paged me so I had to go. I'm gonna go see Zack tomorrow though." Max finished.
"What did Logan want?" Cindy asked.
"Oh nothing really." Max said not really wanted to go into it.
"Oh." Cindy said.